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heyitspaige1127:

Having a bad day? Here’s a lion giving this man a hug!

-me-

knowing i’ve attempted suicide twice planning to

die and another half dozen partial attempts makes

locating my heart a difficult task. i want to

tell you i feel shame, but that isn’t me. and i want

to blame you, but that isn’t you. 

i got caught up in lives circles going around

and around so many times looking for a way

out, that i have forgotten pain is a bad thing.

and along the way, i came to realize that memories

of events are better than the actual events.

memories i can re-live as often as i need to

and i can always share my memories with other

people.

it is gut wrenching watching the happiness 

take place around me when -my- happiness comes

in seroquel format and my pride is better known

as clonazepam.

whats wrong with me today, Doc? can you

please tell me the answer instead of the

solution? i wish to be a person again instead

of a prescription and an amount of time

allocated on a schedule in-between other

medication cocktails trying to “get it right”.

i will never be right. and i don’t want to

be right ever either. the most interesting

people in the world are not read like books

but are instead questioned like the big bang

and existence itself.

you must believe me when i say i am trying to

be someone. anyone for now, just to keep the

flames going - my plan is that when i’m big

enough to be a bonfire, i’ll have the edges

smoothed out and not be a complete question

but a complete question that has the ability

to give the answer to those sitting around me

with marshmallows and hot dogs on their sticks.

at times i have been the equivalent of a soldier,

looking down the barrel and closing my eyes as

i pull the trigger at someone i don’t even know -

because i had to.

for a long time now, i have felt like white paint

on an empty wall - when you stare at it long enough,

it disappears and space overcomes the wall, a wall

transforms into blue and grey and red and crazy and

irrational.

in time i want to be that blanket you took with

you when you moved out of your parents house. the

one that always smells so nice and you feel safe

when i am around your shoulders.

~Nick

heyitspaige1127:

Today is the 3 year anniversary of my bipolar disorder diagnosis. This day is very important to me. I call it the day I got my life back. I remember sitting in my psychiatrist’s office when she gave me the news. I had so many different emotions. I was relieved to finally have a diagnosis. I was…

good luck! :) 

burning-soul:

 elrentaplats
U.S. Announces Additional Humanitarian Assistance for Syria Crisis

statedept:

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Secretary of State John Kerry announced today the United States is providing nearly $500 million in additional humanitarian aid to help those affected by the war in Syria. This is the largest funding announcement made by the United States in response to the largest appeal the United Nations has ever issued. The UN’s revised Syria appeals, issued in July, requested $6 billion in contributions to mitigate the impacts of a tragedy of historic proportions.

Read more on www.state.gov.

flitterling:

Scorpius over the Plains by Luis Argerich

flitterling:

Scorpius over the Plains by Luis Argerich

whitehouse:

President Obama and the First Lady joined millions of people across the country to commemorate the September 11 attacks through acts of service.

another awesome!

inspirewiki:

This is very interesting. Great job to whoever observed this!

haha! awesome!

inspirewiki:

This is very interesting. Great job to whoever observed this!

haha! awesome!

namimentalhealth:

Perhpas you can support an Eeyore you know like Christopher Robin, Piglet, Tiger, Winnie the Pooh and the others did. 

namimentalhealth:

Perhpas you can support an Eeyore you know like Christopher Robin, Piglet, Tiger, Winnie the Pooh and the others did.