Having a bad day? Here’s a lion giving this man a hug!
knowing i’ve attempted suicide twice planning to
die and another half dozen partial attempts makes
locating my heart a difficult task. i want to
tell you i feel shame, but that isn’t me. and i want
to blame you, but that isn’t you.
i got caught up in lives circles going around
and around so many times looking for a way
out, that i have forgotten pain is a bad thing.
and along the way, i came to realize that memories
of events are better than the actual events.
memories i can re-live as often as i need to
and i can always share my memories with other
it is gut wrenching watching the happiness
take place around me when -my- happiness comes
in seroquel format and my pride is better known
whats wrong with me today, Doc? can you
please tell me the answer instead of the
solution? i wish to be a person again instead
of a prescription and an amount of time
allocated on a schedule in-between other
medication cocktails trying to “get it right”.
i will never be right. and i don’t want to
be right ever either. the most interesting
people in the world are not read like books
but are instead questioned like the big bang
and existence itself.
you must believe me when i say i am trying to
be someone. anyone for now, just to keep the
flames going - my plan is that when i’m big
enough to be a bonfire, i’ll have the edges
smoothed out and not be a complete question
but a complete question that has the ability
to give the answer to those sitting around me
with marshmallows and hot dogs on their sticks.
at times i have been the equivalent of a soldier,
looking down the barrel and closing my eyes as
i pull the trigger at someone i don’t even know -
because i had to.
for a long time now, i have felt like white paint
on an empty wall - when you stare at it long enough,
it disappears and space overcomes the wall, a wall
transforms into blue and grey and red and crazy and
in time i want to be that blanket you took with
you when you moved out of your parents house. the
one that always smells so nice and you feel safe
when i am around your shoulders.
Today is the 3 year anniversary of my bipolar disorder diagnosis. This day is very important to me. I call it the day I got my life back. I remember sitting in my psychiatrist’s office when she gave me the news. I had so many different emotions. I was relieved to finally have a diagnosis. I was…
good luck! :)
Secretary of State John Kerry announced today the United States is providing nearly $500 million in additional humanitarian aid to help those affected by the war in Syria. This is the largest funding announcement made by the United States in response to the largest appeal the United Nations has ever issued. The UN’s revised Syria appeals, issued in July, requested $6 billion in contributions to mitigate the impacts of a tragedy of historic proportions.
Read more on www.state.gov.
President Obama and the First Lady joined millions of people across the country to commemorate the September 11 attacks through acts of service.
This is very interesting. Great job to whoever observed this!
Perhpas you can support an Eeyore you know like Christopher Robin, Piglet, Tiger, Winnie the Pooh and the others did.